Sunday, August 30, 2009

Do you know what it feels like to not be able to run away?

It's like being in a wheel chair on a freeway. Trying to dodge ALL the cars, and being slow. You can't run, or even push yourself fast enough to get out of the way.
That's exactly what it's like being at my house.
and I'm tired of being here. I'm tired of my mom taking advantage of me and then trying to pin me as the bad guy in front of people and my friends. and laughs about it. Like when we go to the store or my friends come over and she tries to act all superior and says stuff like "Hah. Well lets see you get anything out of me with what you just said." if I say something like "Sup homles!" just playing obviously. then when my friends backs are turned she makes hand gestures and face gestures telling me things like "fuck you you stupid bitch. shut the fuck up." or whatever and I'm tired of how everytime I have to talk to her, she just goes and says something completely different. Like if I was to say "Oh well I like hanging out with frankie cuz.." and then she cuts me off and goes "cuz he's probably going to kill you and you wont know cuz your dumb." and I'm all yeah that's exactly it.
or how when she's wrong she keeps trying to cut me off and then goes "I dont need to argue with you I know I'm right, and you're wrong. and you don't know anything cuz I took 4 years of college and am a professional and youre just a lazy scum who doesnt do anything with her life and dates losers." Yet thats her. it's not like she even knows 1 cent worth of Techonology which actually counts. I swear on my life I'm gonna make a machine that will put her out of a job so she can see how it feels to try so hard and then just always get pushed aside or pushed down and have someone go "well im better than you. :D"

SICKANDTIREDOFITALL.
ugh.

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