CHICAGO, is a new favorite movie.

This is the best idea and choreography I feel like, in the world.





This is the best song in the movie also.

Where to find help when bitter or critical...

I CORINTHIANS 13.
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Thought I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clang cymbal.
And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy;love does not parade itself, is not puffed up.
Does not behave rudely, does not seek it's own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
Bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.



If you did not understand, He's saying that no matter what you have or do or become, or anything, if you don't have or know what love is, none of it will matter. You can do the kindest stuff but you have no love, it wont count.
also how hes trying to give an example about how when children are little they know not so much and they understand only what their brains can comprehend. But as we get older, we realize more, and grow more.
I really liked this chapter. =]
I thought I'd share it with you guys.

I really want this bracelet

it's driving me insane. ='[



It sucks cuz I wanna go out and make it myself, but I want my bf to think of it so it's more special. Lol....it won't happen. I'll just go with him so I know what I want. =]

ohohohoh and I want a better carved wooden wolf.
Like this basically.

or sitting up, howling.

Loud Thoughts

My thoughts are loud tonight.
Like silence yelling through the night.
Cold and dead, yet so alive in my head.
Screaming voices telling me,
Should I tell him?
Should I set him free?
And what if there not be waiting for me,
the happiness I seek,
and how I long for thee.
How can I ever know
what it means to truly be,
when all of this is new to me.
How can I find myself in all this dark?
There has to be traces,
there has to be marks.
Nothing makes much sense to me,
but how can it? I'm too blind to see.
My thoughts are loud tonight.
Like silence yelling through the night.
Cold and dead, but for now I'll escape them and not let it spread.






[I'm obviously not that great of a song writer. Lol
but it says to write songs no matter what, and when you start to write a lot you'll finally get some good stuff. So thats what I'm doing. =] ]

In progress.... [kinda iffy]

My condolences, I didnt see.
The part of you that was in me.
How easy you find me to be,
so fragile yet so hard to see.
I'm absolutely ordinary.
Truly now you never knew,
how skeptic everything was to you.
So deep, so tragic
Yet you kept me alive.
Damned if I were to be,
the last one alone on earth with thee,
Living not amongst the dead,
living with these thoughts in my head.
Burning in my throat,
Hold me tight, I might choke.

No one else can bind me so close
to the cold dead host, with no heart to beat.
Careful, Trying not to kill,
you whisper to me "please stay still"
Breathing me in, and letting me go.
Is my scent not enough for you?
Can you do it? Can you pull through?




[Of course when I wrote this, I started thinking of twilight. Lol..]

So I havent been posting lately...

because stupid Twitter is like my new blog. Lol.
but yeah just a lot of stuff has been going on I guess. I guess right now all I need is a cute cuddly friend I can pet and tell everything to and go to sleep next to it every night and wake up every morning and play with it. Since I have nothing else to do now, why not? You know?
I wish I could stumble upon a job somewhere . I REALLY need one. =[
So I can have this..





=[[
but yeah anyways, I've just been bored with life. Not really much to do and no car so yeah.